urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays For serious. D-eLlE 2006-04-30T04:35:55Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:14011 2006-04-30T04:35:55Z 2006-04-30T04:35:55Z cute is what we aim for; teasing to please so yeah im real drunk. and the truth comes out when your real drunk right? lol well i was just looking at everyone's lj's and such. and i miss everyone so much. Last winter, and a little bit of the summer was really a turning point in my life. Im not sure why, but i feel like i can remember everyday of the past, but barely anything recent. Im an alien to everyone i used to hang out with. To all the people that actually cared about me, my <i>real</i> friends. Sure i like the people i hang out with now, but if i was in any sort of real trouble, none of them would be there for me. I miss my old life, i miss my old friend, i miss my old self. I feel like ive turned into some other person, someone i promised myself id never be. I just wish change was not something that happened to me, i hate when it happens, and i hate when it passes me by, and i don,t realize till its too late. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:13657 2006-04-27T22:49:53Z 2006-04-27T22:49:53Z YAY! kellie goes to hawain gold, and thats the gym i was joining! i feel so much better about joining now!!! =] i was really afraid i was gonna have to be there by myself! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:13455 2006-04-26T20:08:33Z 2006-04-26T20:08:33Z so! ummm its been monthssince ive used this thing. Im gonna start again! <big>I NEED TO START GOING TO THE GYM!</big> I have been putting it off, waiting for someone to come wiht me, but apparently that isn,t gonna happen. So friday night when i get my paycheck, whether or not anyone joins me, im joining the gym! & Im gonna go and lose weight! things are good! im going to junior prom... a little excited about that. School isn,t that bad, except for all the college stuff. I don,t want to grow up and make decisions, i can,t even decide what to eat everyday. Yesterday was nice. I didn,t have work, so me and mike dropped off my books, picked up lisa and went to get mike shoes. Then we went to wendy's since im on a diet and lisa has high cholesterol. We both got a salad while mike got cheeseburgers =[ lol. They were enjoyable. Then we went to 16th and sat on the bench with Dennis and Luigi, who were "working". lol I saw ducks. I watched them for a long time. I miss Alfred alot! alot alot! Dennis said he was gonna buy me one since i missed alfred so much! Im real excited about that! eh. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:13075 2005-12-09T17:12:49Z 2005-12-09T17:12:49Z I love the snow! AND i love not going to school! Today is the greatest day EVER! lol I just shoveled my house, beasted on that shit! Soon im gonna teach lisa how to make a snow man! She isn,t one for the snow, but snow is my most favorite part of the winter!!! YAY!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:12850 2005-12-02T22:38:47Z 2005-12-02T22:38:47Z oh i think they like me! So this week was the longest school week of my life!!!!!!!!<br /><br />But im in such a good mood now!<br /><br />It all started last night. My mom asked me to go to the RICON! MMM MMM MMM GOOD! i love that place! So i went to dinner with my mom, my two aunts, and my grandfather. It was a good time all around. + my whole family likes to drink so they were entertaining as well. Just when it started to get crazy, Jeanine called me and came and picked me up! She was moving and all that good stuff, im happy for her cause she is happy now! So we drove around, chatted, and stopped by the bowling alley. More good times! Then i got home and did all my homework [which is really paying off]. & i showered and straightened my hair. I got to wake up fairly late this morning, since my hair was straightened. Mrs. Bodayle never showed for 0 period, so me and danielle bounced out of there at like 8:00. School was surprisingly good. Finished that HSPA practice shit, saw mr. tokars turtles, and took a nap on the couch in tv production. Then i found out i passed my chem test! That is reallyy really exciting! Then i found out that i did better then i thought i did on my history test! ut oh! im crazy.<br /><br />After school, while i was walking, Jeanine called me and came and picked me up. It was nice since it was kinda chilly out, and i didn,t feel like walking to work. Since i had alot of time to spare, we went to BK! we got big kids meals and hella cool toys! Then i got to work, that wasn,t anything special, except for the fact that everyone kept praising me. They were like Danielle you are gonna go far in life blah blah you are such a good employee, it was madness [but about time too lol]<br /><br />I just got home, and now im about to eat chicken left over from the ricon.<br /><br />And kellie just informed me, she found KAWASAKI, and my motion city soundtrack hat! Yay! <br /><br />PEACE YO!<br /><br />p.s. I will miss kellie being downtown, even though we really don,t hang out anymore lol. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:12618 2005-11-25T20:55:27Z 2005-11-25T20:55:27Z Lots of exciting things happened in the last month! Of course this past month had its boring moments too, but there is always that day that makes up for it. <br /><br />Im passing school! Well barely but i am passing so that is always a plus! I really do have to work on doing better tho. Second marking period is gonna be my time! lmao. <br /><br />Yesterday was thanksgiving. Spending time with my family was really annoying and really boring. BUT then i met up with friends and had lots of SOBER fun. It was crazy. And i love tea & cake.<br /><br />The day before thanksgiving, we had a "bootleg thanksgiving". It was intense. Not really lol but it was fun. I can,t wait till it snows. I love the snow.<br /><br />danielle is here, and i was cake so im gonna go eat it now.<br /><br />&lt;3 PEACE NUKKAS! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:12318 2005-11-02T03:49:18Z 2005-11-02T03:49:18Z <big><big><big><big><big><big>&hearts;</big></big></big></big></big></big> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:12253 2005-10-12T03:19:22Z 2005-10-12T03:19:22Z we be burnin' SO it all started out when i was sitting eating a reese's peanut butter cup [this is now by the way] and i realize... this is my life. And im not upset about it AT ALL! im actually happy about it. I like most of the people i hang out with. I have the greatest friend ever. I have fun. Its still fun even when its chill! and im never lonely. i just figured id let everyone know that! ;] urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:11841 2005-09-29T20:23:52Z 2005-09-29T20:23:52Z i can fit <b><big><big><big><big>77</b></big></big></big></big>cheerios in my mouth without gagging! <i>BE JEALOUS</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:11543 2005-09-28T01:47:08Z 2005-09-28T01:47:08Z z100 They are gone. For good. They aren't coming back. This weekend was really hard for me. Im not really a good person. I wouldn't be alive right now if it wasn't for Lisa.<br /><br />My heart is really broken. And i need someone to fix it. I tried to, Lisa tried to, my mom even tried to. But its just broken. Im a hypocrite. I make fun of people who are "in" love, or have "experienced" love... when in all reality thats all i want. Just a fun fact for yall.<br /><br />I push people away, just so they will push back. They never push back, they always leave. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:11421 2005-09-21T02:41:52Z 2005-09-21T02:41:52Z the audition I quit guard. Im not really sure why. I regret it already. Im gonna miss it alot. Im gonna wind up going to all the games, and watch them and be upset! blah! What is done is done. Tonight was boring. <br /><br />Tomorrow i have work and practice. Boring again. I hope something exciting happens soon.<br /><br /><br />....... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:11123 2005-09-19T01:29:02Z 2005-09-19T01:29:02Z z100 So, YEA! lol i got grounded for the first time in mad long! Like my mom always says im grounded but never follows through, well this time she did. I was grounded all weekend, <b>but</b> it wasn,t that bad!<br /><br />+ she didn,t let me go to the game <br />- she didn,t let my go to maureens housewarming<br />+ i FINALLY "officaially" got my permit<br />- i had to stay in on a saturday night<br /> alot of people said i missed alot of fun =[<br />+ it wasn,t that bad. i spent "quality" time with my momma<br />+ she took me driving this morning<br />- i had to clean the backyard<br />+ we got <i>hawt</i> new furniture<br />- i had to put it together lol<br />+ she isn,t disappointed in me<br /> i was really worried she would like think less of me, but she doesn,t =]! and she still loves me B.F.F. Lisa.<br /><br />This week is gonna be really fucking hard. This is the time i wish i had a boyfriend. Just so like i had someone to listen to me complain, cause im tired of making lisa do it lol. So, the DeVenutas are officially moving out. And as much as i say i won,t miss them, and im so relieved they are going... im lying. Like i lived with them for almost 9 years. I watched Marcella and Gino grow up. I fight with them like they are my family. And im gonna miss them alot. Sure it will be easier for my mom, but i don,t know. Like my mom is never gonna be around anymore, and i know im not always pleasant about her... im gonna miss relying on her. And its just gonna be so upsetting like when they actually leave. Cause they really don,t want to leave, and they already cry like every night. I don,t know what im gonna do the day they actually leave. I had to help take some of their furniture out today, while they weren,t home and i was like crying. I am not gonna be able to say goodbye. And its one of those situations where their dad says they can always visit, but not really. Like when you give a dog away, and the owner is like feel free to visit whenever, but there is never time or something like that. And i don,t want that to happen, cause i will miss them alot. This really sucks. I should be happy. I finally get my life back. Like i won,t have to deal with anyone cause my brother hardly ever talks to me. My mom won,t be around cause she is gonna start volunteering at some shelter. Ill never have to stay in on a Friday or Saturday to watch Marcella. Oh man. I just don,t want them to go. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:10752 2005-09-06T04:40:47Z 2005-09-06T04:40:47Z <big><big><big><big><big><big><big>WOW</big></big></big></big></big></big></big><br /><br /><b>I FUCKED UP TIMES 2!</b><br /><br /><i>AND SCHOOL IS ON WEDNESDAY, SO I CAN,T FIX IT</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:10640 2005-09-04T15:44:56Z 2005-09-04T15:44:56Z z100 <big><big><big><big>SO...</big></big></big></big> <br /><br />Im single and he isn,t mad! I am such a beast!!!! <br /><br />Friday night I went to Lisa's house. I started drinking at about 8:30-9... Didn,t stop drinking till 9 in the morning on Saturday! WOAH! and i got some action! Kellie is a major cock block... but we are by far the best cock blocks together!! COCK BLOCK TEAM! I had so much fun! Ahhh but i was <b>MAD</b> tired.<br /><br />Last night, LAME lol nah it wasn,t that bad... i had a mini drama as lisa calls it. And i had to be home by midnight, so i missed all the fun! But its aiiight! Its only sunday! <br /><br />&lt;3 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:10282 2005-08-24T16:08:43Z 2005-08-24T16:08:43Z led zepplin; D'Yer Mak'er So i have a <b>dilehma</b>... well ive had it for quite some time now. SOMEONE DELETED MY MYSPACE!!!!!!! one day if i find out who it is... im gonna murder them, cause ive had my myspace for longer then a year! shitface!!!!!<br /><br />anyway... i miss my myspace, but it seems a bit too populated. DO y'all think i should make a new one!?!<br /><br /><br /><br />p.s. i miss hanging out with kellie and laura! those crazy cool cats, and of course gabbie, lauren, and agatha.. even tho i didn,t hang out with them that much... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:10085 2005-08-10T20:36:32Z 2005-08-10T20:38:02Z <b><big><big><big>LIFE IS GEWD</b></big></big></big> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:9822 2005-08-01T15:09:00Z 2005-08-01T15:09:00Z the who So Im home! Yay! Last night was nice, hung out with Christian,Jared,Mike,Nick, and some kid John i believe. It was nice, but i left them after a short while. I soon then met up with Lisa, Matt, Pat, Anthony, Phish, and Andrew. We went up to BK, and who walks in but JOE MAJOR! he was with Kellie Lauren and Ashley. We sat and chatted in BK. It was nice. I missed them!And tonight is where the party's at! Im so excited cause i went like 6 days without drinking! AHHHHHH! i can,t live like that! lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:9508 2005-07-26T19:45:31Z 2005-07-26T19:45:31Z the rocket summer So my last entry was really depressing.. haha i would delete it but im sure everyone already read it. My life isn,t that bad, yes i had a bad 12 days. But its over now. AND I AM AIIIGHT! Im not friendless either blah blah, and the last three days have been MUCH fun. But im leaving tomorrow =]! SOUTH CAROLINA FOR 5 DAYS! RIGHT ON THE BEACH! can,t fuck with that! well thats all, i just wanted to clear up the fact that im not a complaining depressed bitch... WERRRRRD! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:9335 2005-07-24T00:44:31Z 2005-07-24T00:44:31Z WOW. When you look back on the last two weeks of my life, boy oh boy have things changed. Am I a different person? <br /><br />So, I went to Virginia for like 8 days with kellie, to visit her aunt. I didn,t bring my meds with me. So when i got back, i had ALOT of problems. And no one was there for me. So on top of my mental issues i was in a high state of depression. I was really fucked up for a couple days and i felt non-exsistent. But the doctors put me on stronger meds, new therapist and shit like that. Unfortunately, when i returned home, i was left just about friendless.<br /><br />The few i thought i had, either moved on, or as some people put it, don,t like my mood swings. Which really fucking kills me cause most of them know i have a problem. Sometimes i feel like an alien, i feel like i will never really find anyone who understands me, and that is a really really scary feeling. <br /><br />I'm not suicidal or anything like that, but i really don,t understand why people do drugs when they are expecting a baby. Why would someone do this to me intentionally? There is so much that i don,t understand and probably never will. <br /><br />So anyway, im off the new meds, and available to hang out again, but like i said, i am left friendless. Im so tired of being alone. And this is the main reason i am writing this last entry. I am done reading everyone's lj's even though i don,t hang out with them. So this is it. Im done. this is my last entry, and i will not return to read anyone's lj in return. It was lovely sitting here and writing this, but now i must depart.<br /><br />-Danielle urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:9186 2005-05-31T11:27:27Z 2005-05-31T11:27:27Z i hate being a bitch. <br /><br />this weekend was aiight. friday i spent it in the bathroom helping someone. saturday i some problems with kellie, but sunday night i got drunk for the first time in ALOT of months! it was relieving but at the same time i made some mistakes when i did that.<br /><br />someone was with me everytime i had a problem this weekend, and then when i was finally happy, he wasn,t. he is never happy. =[ im by far the wrong person for him. I TREAT HIM LIKE SHIT. so i think we broke up. but he really is a GREAT kid, and i really want him to still be my friend. we rushed things, he didnt know anything about me. i don,t want him to be sad, of all people he doesn,t deserve it! i wish life wasn,t all about titles, like boyfriend/girlfriend shit. it ruins so many friendships. i wish people could just hang out and hook up! what is wrong with that. no ones feelings would be hurt, and everyone could stay friends. i hate all this shit. i sorta feel like a bad person, cause i really did like him, but there was just too much commitment he wanted from me. and so much drama, and feelings. and i can,t handle that, and i probably never will be able to. and on top of all this i have MAD family problems. i can,t deal with both and still be a nice person! it just is physically impossible for me. <br /><br />IM A LESBIAN! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:8859 2005-05-10T03:29:31Z 2005-05-10T03:29:31Z funeral for a friend well its been a while since i updated. everything has turned upside down! things went from being the worst to being better then i could imagine. MUCH THANKS TO KELLIE! my true B.F.F. lmao. <br /><br />another thing i would like to state here. is how i appologize for being so judgemental. also im sometimes fake. like i can be mad at someone but not say anything so i don,t hurt their feelings, but it doesn,t make me feel any differently about them. one word of advice for all you "livejournalers"; don,t judge people, don,t be fake, and be nice. live life likes its your last day. im sure most people will never understnad how strongly i feel about this, but trust me. and for anyone i was mean to or judged before i knew you, im terribly sorry, i used to be a nice person lol and im gonna try to be that again. AND I LOVE KELLIE SCULLY! in a non-lesbian way just to clear things up! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:8473 2005-04-20T01:30:15Z 2005-04-20T01:30:15Z act appalled- circa survive This entry is for Kellie! i love u too boo! u r by far the greatest friend EVER! thank you for being here for me now. Kuz u keep me smiling through the tears. everything u said in your entry, should be here too! kuz u pretty much said it all. &lt;3 i love u! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:8330 2005-04-20T01:24:58Z 2005-04-20T01:24:58Z sugarcult [pretty girl] i hate people who complain about stupid shit! i know my life isn,t horrible, but it is like ten times worse then theirs... and then stupid people agree with them, and are like i kno how u feel.... wtf?! omg u had a bad day... get the fuck over it. one day something seriously bad is gonna happen to them and they r just not gonna know what to do with themselves! god! i hate emo teenagers, kuz they don,t know what hurt is and probably never will! so shut the fuck up already! and if u r reading this and getting affended... well then this is for u! omg omg i had a bad day now my life is over... ehhh. i can,t wait till u people get older and realize what life is like. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:8168 2005-04-18T01:04:20Z 2005-04-18T01:04:20Z THE POSTAL SERVICE Well, im supposed to be doing homework... but im MAD bored so im gonna update! and its gonna be super long! so even if u start to read it.... ure gonna get tired of reading before u get to the end.<br /><br />SO my spring break started early! New Orleans woop! It was alot of fun! kinda boring at times... but it was a good experience all around! u know it! bought lots of gifts! missed mah boo! <br /><br />The first nite i came back i was neglected by mah boo. kuz she really does have her own boo! it saddens me. but anywho, i called up mah homie nikole! we haven,t hung out in a long time! it was refreshing. We talked about alot of stuff. I love wen i don,t see her, and then we start talking and it feels like we just picked up where we left off... like there is never that awkwardness. she is a cool cat and a good friend. it turns out she also has her own boo now too! im very excited for everyone and their boo;s but it is a tad bit upsetting since im a DUMB JEALOUS BITCH and screwed up the best thing ive ever had. anyway. <br /><br />monday just went to work and hung out with kellie, we saw some people... hung out with them. nothing too exciting that night.<br /><br />tuesday... hmm i don,t remember what i did during the morning... but in the evening i met nikole and went to MF. we went to go find her boo, but he wasn,t working. we saw katrine alice and gabbie. stayed with them for some time and then came back dt. Called up jared and his homies. Hung out with him kevin, russel, pat, and joe norton. good kids! oh yea and asian nick was there. then nick and kevin left. and the rest of us walked to joe majors house! i missed him alot! then i had to walk nikole home so i just went home after that.<br /><br />wednesday... went to work in the morning... got into a little trouble there so went home early. went to the mall with nikole and got some hawt perfume! i realy liked it but i spent way to much money! and then we got yummy chicken caesar wraps from blimpie... they were really good. then on the way home joe called me! joe major!!! yaya... so then nikole left on 45th street. so i went to meet up with kellie and then we went over to joe's. sam, joe, and this kid matt [cowboy] were playing lacrosse. it was intense. so we stayed there for a while. then everyone had to leave except for me joe and kellie. we went to bk and did other stuff. it was an enjoyable night. i really didn,t realize how much i missed joe! and me kellie and him had lots of fun. AND! i got to go in his house. and he gave me a tour. it was exhilirating. then ubl and ian came, and then we all went home. <br /><br />thursday... woke up mad late son! then cleaned my room and stuff. i can,t really remember what i did after that... hmm i know i went out. i guess me and kellie just hung out... idk i can,t remember any details.<br /><br />friday.... went to work in the morning. then joe came to my house and then we met kellie. we walked to carvel and got a discount since kellie is kim,s sister. we even got to talk to trish for a while. that was fun. then we stopped in sound city and joe put a down payment on some cd. then we went to blockbuster. but decided not to get anything. after that joe was hungry so we went to bk... lots of people were there so we went to mona lisa... and all these weird kids followed us. joe knew most of them so we spent some time chatting with them. joe norton was also there. joe major got a little annoyed by them so we went bak to bk. and sat there for like almost and hour and a half. just talking and bonding again. it was fun again.<br /><br />saturday... woke up late again. then met katrine and kellie. we had alchohal but we didn,t drink it. kuz none of us were really in good moods. Kevin was there too... he was sorta bitchy all night. then we went to the swings... saw the same kids from friday... chatted and left. katrine's dad came and picked her up and me and kellie had a couple deep moments at the bus stop lol. then went to my aunts house, and played cards... i cheated again... and listened to cher, meatloaf, and the forest gump soundtrack.<br /><br />sunday... woke up fairly early, did nothing. sat in the backyard in my pajama's lol. then went to a christaning at 2. stayed there for a while, then met kellie. we read sarah's myspace, so we went to ask her some questions. then we saw asian nick. he told me that he was gonna be too pre-occupied to be my friend in the future. and then i came home. and now im here.<br /><br />being much bored! much much bored! im harrassing joe norton to talk to me lol... he doesn,t seem that bothered tho... school tomorro... didn,t do any homework! woop im a badass!<br /><br /><br />&lt;3 good luck to those who read this lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:orange_monkays:7686 2005-04-07T00:46:26Z 2005-04-07T00:46:26Z IM LEAVING FOR NEW ORLEANS IN 7 HOURS!!! IM SOOOOOO EXCITED! but im gonna miss everyone!!!!<br /><br />I love u allllll!!!!